Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Yesterday was my first day back to the gym after a two week break.
I was looking forward to it all day, then on the way I started having anxiety. I kept trying to think of reasons to just go home. I've been doing that a lot lately with everything. I have been skipping out on activities, exercising, and friends. I am fighting the hermit mode part of me wants to go into. Part of it I think is from not feeling good*, but I'm feeling better now and I'm trying to keep the hermit mode out of my routine.
The other part of it is just this time of year. Its cold. I tend to eat to much which means if I can stay at home and not wear pants, then I will. Holidays stress me out, all the traveling and money it requires. My parents are divorced and my extended family is spread out, which means sometimes someone doesn't get a visit. Then I feel guilty. Then I get more stressed out. Then I want to stay at home, in my pjs. (really though, who wants to put on too tight jeans and go out into the cold??)
Anyway, I got sidetracked. I still went to the gym, despite my excuses. (The traffic is bad, its raining, blah blah blah) It was worth it. I missed the gym. I am supposed to take it semi-easy. I did the precor elliptical (which is turning into my new favorite thing!) for a little over a mile and did some weights. I also did some sit ups and some other core moves. It was nice just to be back.
I hope you all have a wonderful and safe Thanksgiving! I am excited to go see my family tomorrow, and for Willow to see them too! :)
*In my last post, I was talking about my back/stomach pain and the causes. It turns out I had a fairly large cyst on my right ovary. It was about 6.5 cm (an ovary is the size of an almond) when I went to the ER and last week when I went to my doctor it was down by 2 cm. That was Friday, and now I'm feeling much less pain and slowly getting my energy back. Its amazing how much energy hurting can take out of you. I'm hoping it stays small and eventually goes away on its own.
Posted by Lisseee at 6:02 AM
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
I was hoping by now that I could at least be in the running (get it?) for a 10k. I was hoping that I could run 6 miles NBD by now. I thought. I hoped. Life (obviously) isn't about all that I want or hoping or thought though.
I've been having a nagging lower back ache for a while now, it wasn't enough for me to go to the doctor about it. Then it turned into spasms and now it hurts to bend over. Then on top of that, Sunday the pain spread to my lower abdomen. It has gone from them thinking its a UTI, to a Pinched Nerve, to a Ovarian Cyst. It could still be a combo of the last two. All I know is that it is effecting my daily life and my routine, and I'm not used to hurting all the time. Its making me so angry! (not going to the gym is also not helping with my mood)
It doesn't help either that it costs money to go to the doctor or to the ER. And to go to those doctor appointments costs me time at work which being paid hourly means its costs me money. Oh yea, and its the holidays which also puts a dent into my dwindling bank account. I'm already struggling, and I guess its getting to me. You could say this is a vent post.
Anyway, I decided today that I'll take Dory's advice and "Just keep swimming." Leaving work early to go crawl up into a ball at home isn't going to help. That only makes things worse. I've been falling behind on everything lately, the house, work, school, all because of whatever is wrong with my back/abdomen. I'm just going to have to grin and bear it (or bare?), and hope it will dissipate eventually.
I am going to meet my advisor at Mary Baldwin College on my lunch break to enroll in classes for the Spring. I'm looking forward to that. Friday I go to the doctor again, so until then I'm taking it easy on the workouts. I hope everyone is enjoying their fall weather runs!
Posted by Lisseee at 6:23 AM